Opened my season of cooking demonstrations June 7th with the next June 14th. My mustard sauces were a big hit and the vendors told me they saw an increase in sales. FAB! I use ingredients from as many vendors as possible for my cooking demos. The point is to have customers LUV a recipe and then be able to take all the yummy fixin’s home with them. The bok choy gal sold out.
So, I’m feeling pretty good. Then, I read a note from myself, posted in March, in my calendar. Today is the day I have to write to a possible publisher for my book, You’re Not Dead, Yet and find out if they are going to #%& or get off the pot. Now, this is not some schlump publisher. We had many emails about my book and they were very positive. They had lots of good questions about where I was going with the material. I knew they had actually read the chapters and other recipe materials I had sent.
In speaking to a well-known book author, I was told that the publisher has had enough time to make a decision. They need to make a deal or let me move to the next step. I thought about it and agreed. Time to jump without a parachute, again.
Most of my life and successes have been things I did by myself or I was the reluctant leader. I was so hoping that some professional person would edit my material, hold my feet to the fire and show me how to get this done. Doesn’t look promising. Also, I need to have something to sell at cooking demos, conferences and other events. The real cash is in product, not speaking fees.
I have a big conference coming up, The North American Vegetarian Society Summerfest. This is where you go to learn all things plant-based. I learned more there in 5 days than my whole year in grad school about biochemistry and nutrition. The audience is WAY smart and will ask the most detailed questions. They also buy product. Thus, I thought my book would have a release date by now and I could get a pre-sales going. Not going to happen. I am putting together a one-day Summer Cooking Intensive at the LaDiva studio kitchen. That is one thing to sell, but these people buy books.
It is true that I have not heard back from my email of “Maybe we don’t have a fit” to the publishers. On the other hand, if history repeats itself, I will be self-publishing, creating an E-book, figuring out how to link videos, designing covers and whatever else it takes. I’m almost finished with the first draft of the entire thing.
I do want to roll my eyes, exhale and say, Who really cares whether I do this or not?
Then that annoying voice says, You wrote it. Publish it. Who cares if no one buys it. You can say, just like when you finished the marathon, I did it and I don’t ever have to do it again. You are going to get older, anyway. You are going to write other stuff, anyway. Get it done anyway.
Gee, I can’t wait to get on another untraveled road to possibly nowhere. But I won’t know if I don’t put on my walking shoes.
Here’s a sigh and a nod to Maya Angelou, Wouldn’t take nothing for my journey now.